Те чувства что во мне живут
Как объяснить все ведь ночами
Заснуть раздумья не дают
Тебя я вспоминаю мама родная милая прости
За то что был всегда упрям я
Избрал тернистые пути
Прости родная за разлуку
За письма редкие мои
Я мысленно тебе целую руку
И губы сжатые твои
Я часто плачу вспоминая, как обижал порой тебя
Прости меня моя родная, в последний раз прости любя
Как много так не понимал я, как много мне ещё понять
Наверное любил я мало, коль все ж не смог любовь познать
Твою любовь, любовь без меры, твои надежды и мечты
Прости за дерзкие манеры, из за чего грустила ты
Теперь о жизни больше знаю, я многое сумел понять
Твою заботу вспоминаю, и так хочу тебя обня-аааааа-ть.
If you should understand, its in russian. Haha, not gonna explain the meaning either.
Hi all :D Its been long, and it will be longer the nxt time hahaha. Random. :O
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should be glad that its a new year and everythings behind us already. or is it ? has it?
depends on you lah.
school just reopened and i already missed 2 days out of the first week. woah, smack shit man. but anyway...
today had a big shit from my parents ,
so as usual i had nothing to do and so i decide to write something out of nothing lah.
First, HSA's letter finally came ,
they knew i went back to square one and i could somehow feel their hearts cracked lah i know. To add on to that , they saw my and im halfway a body out of the house already.
should i be thinking which friend's house i should move to soon? jialat.
Life the same, everyday seems the same you know.
squeeze your life out on public transport during peak hours?
Couldn't concentrate a shit of what the lecturer is talking about.
Eating the same fucking food.
its either always outside late or ton, then is glued to the comp at home. haha.
i hope i was back in secondary:D
which will never happen. if i were , no, even if everyone were given that chance to go back again. im sure they will want to change, to make things right.
but be contended, im kinda lovin' this shit im in right now.
Although its loads of trouble , but hey!
at least there is something to worry or think about.
Occupy me with something man. :D
but then again i wished i was back, to be given a second chance at studies,
a chance to know my parents better before that incident happened O.O
to be a better person and a chance to go after her again.
im sure she will never even want to click to my blog anyway so im not worried bout her coming over this post.
3 years , pasted. i've to pick myself up again to face her.
don't be a jackass who could'nt even speak a single word or tongue tied whenever seeing her. people change, im not sure whether to let go from now on...
probably she got someone she like already,
maybe theres so many better guys after her ,
im outta the league. T.T haha.
move on? douchebag .....
the earth's navigating faster than we think .
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Share with your something that i saw from a friend. that is if you understand! (:
说了又不听，
听了又不懂，
懂了又不做，
做了又做错，
错了又不认，
认了又不改，
改了又不服，
服了也不说。
UNDERSTAND? (:
Last post of the year le,
not many of my resolutions has happened,
but maybe next year will be better.
Should be lah , hor ? lols.
Sian ah .... siiiiibeh sian ah.
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Rock rock rock :D
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Okay , a lot of events recently ,
couldn't remember them all, but lets start from last friday.
It was my last day of common test before the holidays.
So after the test, our class stayed back for Christmas Gift Xchange.
we did it in advance,
cause some of us will not be able to make it for the Xmas outing as expected , people like me.
I also went the Compassvale Secondary 10th Year anniversary later that day.
It was quite okay, went back to school with juniors.
Wait for them pack and then a few of us went the plaza mac for the supper,
but later like the whole band also came already.
After supper , i went home bath and then came out slack with robin and munir only,
cause everyone else was asleep or tired so only left the pathetic 3 of us.
We slacked and slacked until someone say go jalan kayu eat prata so we cabbed down.
Ate , walked back to sengkang ,
me and robin vomitted.
Felt a bit uncomfortable so reached home 7am+ bath hit the sack.
Muahahaha.
Saturday nvr went out work up late in the afternoon whole day stayed at home.
Then on the 20th , sunday went down little india with friends.
Just before heading home,
junjie jio me go the band chalet,
say got who got who until like very fun so i went down alone.
in the end he nvr come fetch me. he watching movie. lOls.
then tonned overnight until next day 11am going 12 then we bused home,
bath pack bag then come out again.
Met junjie again , i go polyclinic see docter take mc.
Then we head back down to chalet again.
We went find joshua they all upstairs first,
gamble gamble then go start bbq fire,
tio pangseh halfway only me one guy outside lols.
play play with food then go watch movie at 9 ,
boring until i slept almost the whole thing,
i couldn't even remember the name already the frog and the princess thing.
okay, after movie went back chalet ,
then all prepare go night cycling.
Okay lah thats considered the nicest and tiring part of the whole thing.
They rent 9 doubles & 3 singles. so i extra one person come out.
WeiJun see me ke lian pei me walk so all cycle on. 1/4 only the 3 single bikes,
uhh , brenda , esther , xiaohui wait at the bustop coz rain getting heavier,
they plan me n weijun take 1 bike each then the girls sit infront the bar, haha.
then ride till xiaohui say leg pain bueh tahan then she sit double with a junior,
i forgot that guys name.
left esther solo,
so me and weijun take turn cycle her all the way until near changi beach then back again.
they never reach until the beach coz they say saw weird weird things so all U - turn.
i still rmb me and esther still going up the slope only,
they one whole bunch already chiong down already like got thing chasing them liddat.
cycle whole night,
then say want see sunrise in the end face the wrong direction, haha.
go back chalet, morning 6+ going 7 bath,
all slept a bit, i until 10am liddat cannot wake up sia,
they keep pushing me then i woke up,
go kopitiam eat breakfast/lunch , then take 89 home.
i sleep allllll the way until 10pm , now i very energised cannot sleep.
anyone care to chat with me? lOls.
okay basically thats a whole lot of things i type already,
aiyah nvm lah anyway very long never post one time post long long lah.
some pictures were taken, all not with me so i dunno how,
maybe see from facebook?
okay bye.
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White , Whiter , Whitest.
Your last presence was less than a month ago,
Your last message was 22words long,
Our last conversation lasted for 5 seconds,
My last reply was a word long,
A message that left me broken-hearted was 2pages long.
I could still remember it ...
I liked you... i still do.
I'm still waiting for you,
even if you didn't know it.
4years and still is.
Hope you noticed ...
Though i might've nvr appear in your mind.
You may find it dumb,
or stupid ,
but im still waiting ,
only that i've got no balls to say it.
C'mon man ,
doesn't mean anything ,
just hope you knew.
friend friend eh. :D
你会不会忽然的出现
在街角的咖啡店
我会带着笑脸 回首寒暄
和你坐着聊聊天
我多么想和你见一面
看看你最近改变
不再去说从前 只是寒暄
对你说一句 只是说一句
好久不见
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tomorrow or future ... :/
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Should be relaxing le. but things got bad at my workplace,
Michael Lei/ Transferred to Al Dante Pronto.
Princhette/ HollandV outlet.
Jean/ 3days HS, 3days Pronto. WTF?
Two more new fulltimers transferred over to us , Mervyn & Yati.
So had to work extra lot for this last week.
working 6days including sunday and 4days double shifts i think.
11 to 11. on one day its 11 to 2am.
Wooohooos. so total i think around 50hours. thats more than a normal office working adult le. :P who cares ,
when the pay comes in jiu happy lor.
Anyway , was shock to find myself weighing 4kg lesser than b4.
Target for holiday was suppose to like gain 4kg more ye ?
coupled with the wierdo sleeping & eating times.
( 1 meal a day sleeps at 6am in the morning. wake up in the evening) .
i look like a pile of bones now.
Manager keep saying i weaker than before liao. Die die die.
Actually i felt so too.
I got tired easier than before.
Whatever shit leh.
So this week no time to go out play.
Sadded. Holiday longer leh. haha.
Having headache now.
Also dunno what i writing. ==
Post getting shorter and shorter too. =D
Anyway a video for your! ===>
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FoZmtoV-ubo
Watch a thousand times and you will find it very bad, but still laugh!
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Went to eat Hot Stones wif ah hao last friday. i woke up late , so reach there late also , have to joke with chef tian then he prepare for us. haha. He cut a lot of meat for us sia. very delicious and full. After that go buy ice cream eat. Later Hao went off find Nicholas they all , i stayed back for work. End work late like 4:00 am in the morning then close shop, coz boss forgot we close at 2am and continue taking in customer. dum fuck. lOls. i went home bath change went out again , punggol park. blahblahblah. went home sleep , overslept , missed alumni band practice , dunno when will be the next practice already man. haha. Drank every night sia , not that i got drunk but i think its bad for health haha. bo bian. ying chou mah, abo like very sao xin. went 2 diff pubs in boat quay in 4 days lOls. explore explore. aiyah nothing much to write already. Hope holidays forever . haha. It rained just now ... fuck. hate rain. now 4am plus in the morning le. not sleeping yet , continue watch my SamuraiX muahaha.
One night stand ? :(
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Video: What is that ? Greek Production.
This a Greek short film made in 2007 is about a Father and his son are sitting on a bench. Suddenly a sparrow lands across them.
-Enjoy Heres the link if it buffers too slow. ><
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mNK6h1dfy2o
I'm kinda worried already coz it happened to me again == ,
same symptoms haha. i think i need go hospital check up liao ,
that last time doctor asked me to go i gave it a pass. :p
My belated birthday celebration was over long time ago ,
just to thanks all of em again!(:
it was a fun day out.
Chijmes for dinner and drinking.
i treat em for drinks , beer , cocktails , liqour and stuffs, around 200. haha.
Work was okay so far ,
affected my bio-clock alot.
im sleeping from morning around 5am to afternoon 3pm.
abo if work morning shift - 11:30am will totally nvr sleep at all,
sum up like 30+hours dun need sleep de lor.
Off for work and back home pass midnight.
Day was night , and night was day.
Ytd worked until 3am , cause of F1 so we opened until a later time.
Manager says that there might be late crowd... very tired.
Lost 3kg i think , and my face has shrunk even thinner.
looked older & weaker le.
all these while i only had 1 meal per day.
its when i woke up in the afternoon.
that was my lunch and thats all i had for the day.
Don't really feel hungry tho :x
kind of weird but i think that its not good for my health.
also realise that i drink alcohol more often le lor...
work sure will de, then plus outisde. ><
No wonder fortune-teller says i die young ,
nvr pass my 20th birthday.... sadded.
touch wood lah.
haha.
haha.
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Tuesday , 15th September was my birthday.
I worked on that day , lOls. ==
Thanks to all those people out there for their wishes!(: Appreciated.
Tuesday , was quite a boring day,
cause i slept like 5am in the morning
and woke up in the afternoon like 3pm jiu went for work le.
Work dao 11pm fang gong,
was given a surprise coz the chefs prepared choco brownie for me as my birthday cake.
they switched off the resaturant lights just for the surprise. i chua sai. ><
then Joyce made lychee martini for me.
and got quite a lot of things to eat in the kitchen ><
took one heineken before i left.
Arthur , Donavan , Xinyu & Michelle also gave me surprise.
they waited until i fang gong you know.
blahblahblah. trained home.
Bath le Oovoo again. chat chat chat.
until quite late then all go sleep i continue watch anime.
until around 3am liddat my heart got a very pain feeling.
my whole chest felt cramped up ,
my back as well. then had difficulty breathing...
till a point that i fainted.
Fuck sia! so serious man ,
me myself thought i was like those young guys in the news that die halfway when jogging or playing comp sia. was unconscious until 5am+.
woke up suddenly then whole body sweating and felt very cold.
touch my forehead got fever.
then i faster go eat panadol.
quickly climbed back to sleep,
tried very hard but my heart still very pain.
Kept tossing and turning on my bed. then i message arthur lOls.
forgot what i wrote, but nvm.
tahann until morning 8:30 clinic just open jiu rush in liao.
didn't tell my family coz scared worry em.
doctor dunno check here check there. gimme some pills call me go home eat and rest.
better go hospital for checkup also just in case.
went home.
ate pills.
sleep.
you know what?
those shit that they gave me was just fucking pain killers.
in different packaging and name? wtf?
woke up a lil late ,
rushed for work again.
didn't even bother go check body or what.
but i scared sia , how?
got any link wif the problem with my left hand anot ah?
always shake uncontrollably.
missed out a lot of events coz couldn't remember ,
pictures also lazy put
haha. anyway thats all,
thanks again!
Bye.
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HELLO(:
Holidays had started and so many things happened and took place recently.
This week ,
i finally bought my Tottenham 08-09 season soccer jersey.
$113 dollars. ><
Worth the money cause i spent it on something that i like.
its no longer in production le. 09-10 season's jersey is ugly. haha.
Just a normal sport jersey with some printings on it
and they can claim it a soccer jersey,
but nevermind.
but nevermind.
Next, we had a few more tonning sessions ,
then ytd night 10pm Michelle jio us go ChompChomp eat supper.
with her father , mitchell , arthur , munir , donavan and me. haha.
Long time never go there liao.
Still as crowded as ever. after eating ,
her father drove us to Hougang Plaza play pool.
& a bit of cyber cafe-ing.
then jiu go Mitchell house tonn again liao.
Slept at around 6am++ in the morning.
Woke up late in the afternoon ,
to know that im late for work already.
But still we went compass de Ajisen to eat our Br-unch.
then they walked me home ? haha.
to prepare and go for work.
then they walked me home ? haha.
to prepare and go for work.
Work was okay, quite busy.
Its long since i went for work so kind of forgot some things here and there.
& ya ... its tiring.
to start work all of a sudden after such a long break.
Eh also take a chance to wish a
Belated Birthdays to Johnathan ,
Donavan & Robin. On 10th and 11th , 11th. Respectively. haha.
So many people birthday on this month ><
Uhh ... photos are only when playing pool. waiting for others to send me other photo. ==
Ok , bye.
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Rock rock rock :D
Rock rock rock :D
想對你說的
讓他先說了?
從此只能 猜測?
你流淚是因為
快樂想要給你的
他先給你了?
從此只能 負荷?
寂寞和愛 本來能分割
祝福你是我的保護色?
專心扮演朋友的角色?
在你們擁抱的那一刻?
我心一分為二
欺騙你是我的保護色?
甘心做個愛情的弱者?
真愛不死就能逃得遠遠的?
等待是我職責
路越走越曲折 不能回頭了?
能傷害我的 都是我愛的?
還保護什麼 還保護什麼
祝福你是我的保護色?
專心扮演朋友的角色?
在你們擁抱的那一刻?
我心一分為二
欺騙你是我的保護色?
甘心做個愛情的弱者?
真愛不死就能逃得遠遠的?
等待是我職責愛你是點的
Credits : A-Thur.
PS: Two freaking years past & I'm still waiting...
have you ever noticed my excistence...
Im still me , never changed.
Maybe . i just don't have the courage.
Eh CB!
im not trying to say something orh!
Just saying what Im feeling. =(
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Happy B-Lated 21st Birthday To Xinyu!(:
On Saturday , i went for Xinyu's birthday celebration at aloha loyang resort bungalow 5,
at first cannot find lor lols. ><
It started on friday ,
but i didnt went there so early.
i second day then go :x
We reached there and already it was quite crowded le.
Everyone was eating and chatting and stuff like that.
Straight after eating ,
they started camwhoring already.
whole plaace was being 'flashed' .... too bright le.
i nearly didn't make it out alive there man. ==
especially when the surrounding at the backyard was already very dark and very little lightings. Played a lot of games, forfeits as well ,
Munir was forced to kiss Mr. Er & Mr. Neo then we take photo. haha.
you must see the reactions on their faces man! ><
my forfeit was Donavan having to bite my nipple for 5 second sia!
i thought that it was just joke leh. he bit and pulled ... ouch. 5 holy seconds.
heard that on the first day got ppl de nipple pinch until bleed? >< haha.
they mahjong, poker, UNO , chat and eat all the way through the night no sleep lor,
although quite a lot of people left ,
but a handful of us were still around lah. got 4 bedrooms ,
so we keep hoping here and there haha.
Was supposed to sleep at 6:30am.
but couldn't cause jessica took one whole portion of the bed , lOls!
me don and arthur was squeezing away.
We tried to disturb her sleep but she was too tired to even hear us screaming & kicking her. ? O.O
we made noise all the way until 9:30am she also nvr move a bit sia. power.
even those sleeping next door could hear us loud and clear.
Woke up le then help xinyu pack the whole place up before we hailed cab at 10:30am cause its raining like shit.
thats all lah.
most importantly enjoyed outselves(:
write a lot liao.
pictures are uploaded! not all tho.
all in facebook , mr.neo de album 75pics.
On Saturday , i went for Xinyu's birthday celebration at aloha loyang resort bungalow 5,
at first cannot find lor lols. ><
It started on friday ,
but i didnt went there so early.
i second day then go :x
We reached there and already it was quite crowded le.
Everyone was eating and chatting and stuff like that.
Straight after eating ,
they started camwhoring already.
whole plaace was being 'flashed' .... too bright le.
i nearly didn't make it out alive there man. ==
especially when the surrounding at the backyard was already very dark and very little lightings. Played a lot of games, forfeits as well ,
Munir was forced to kiss Mr. Er & Mr. Neo then we take photo. haha.
you must see the reactions on their faces man! ><
my forfeit was Donavan having to bite my nipple for 5 second sia!
i thought that it was just joke leh. he bit and pulled ... ouch. 5 holy seconds.
heard that on the first day got ppl de nipple pinch until bleed? >< haha.
they mahjong, poker, UNO , chat and eat all the way through the night no sleep lor,
although quite a lot of people left ,
but a handful of us were still around lah. got 4 bedrooms ,
so we keep hoping here and there haha.
Was supposed to sleep at 6:30am.
but couldn't cause jessica took one whole portion of the bed , lOls!
me don and arthur was squeezing away.
We tried to disturb her sleep but she was too tired to even hear us screaming & kicking her. ? O.O
we made noise all the way until 9:30am she also nvr move a bit sia. power.
even those sleeping next door could hear us loud and clear.
Woke up le then help xinyu pack the whole place up before we hailed cab at 10:30am cause its raining like shit.
thats all lah.
most importantly enjoyed outselves(:
write a lot liao.
pictures are uploaded! not all tho.
all in facebook , mr.neo de album 75pics.
see urself lah. lols.
i anyhow put one. (:
all photos not taken by me! lols ><
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i anyhow put one. (:
all photos not taken by me! lols ><
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Rock rock rock :D
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Long since i posted!
Didn't felt like posting and exams are near. (:
Sorry ,
if people couldn't access to my blog lately,
cause dumb me hand itchy go try put blog to private ,
and coz blogger got problem cannot change back to all-view until today. ==
All i could say is sorry. haha.
To end ,
nothing much ,
just some random photos taken long ago,
quite a few ,
and lots more ,
didn't know which one to put so just chunk some in at least got put ^^ .
people force me to put one. uhhh?
Photos taken by : Myself and ELLICETEO ( Requested )
Also not forgetting! TOTTENHAM HOTSPURS' doing good for a start for the season ,
unlike last year first 8 games all lose. ^^
fucking happy.
In a world full of Uniteds, Citys and Rovers, there is only One Hotspur.
Tottenham Hotspurs (:
We Spurs You On! (:
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Rock rock rock :D
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Okay start from yesterday, staurday mah , i worked as usual , until 12midnight .
Our restaurant everybody was invited for supper at Geylang de Seafood Restaurant ,
No Signboard. was the name.
Interesting hor. haha. No Signboard also can be considered a name.
While we were waiting for xierong to finish washing the floor and stuffs,
Michael gave each of us a bottle of Heineken. blah blah blah, waiting like hell long.
Me and Lex were talking talking then finish liao.
michael saw us finish then stuff another bottle for us lOls.
After awhile , XieRong finish liao , then we cab down to No Signboard.
Michael Lei Hujie Nicholas they all there already.
all the full timers and some ex-colleuges were there too like a get together lor (:
The only part timers was me and nicholas. JianHao was last minute sick and couldn't join us ):
The food was damn nice .
Ordered one round after another like free liddat. haha.
Ate until bloated.... bla bla bla. then eat dessert , drink a bit more .
Then took cab home with nicholas and chef loong.
Reached home jiu sleep liao.
All the way man.
Wope up only at 1am in the night, its MONDAY MORNING. !!
wtf means i slept for the whole sunday nvr eat breakfast lunch and dinner. ==
I still thought was sunday sia . x.x
And theres maths test later on in school. im so fuckking dead. . . . . . . .
no mood study now also, so late liao.
i will go back to sleep again i think . hahaha!
sleep until like pig liddat
Umm okay lah ,
goodnight.
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Rock rock rock :D
Rock rock rock :D
